Thursday, June 16, 2011

A new begining

Wow I can’t believe it’s been over a year since I have posted a blog. What a slacker!

So much has changed for me this year. We moved into a new house that we love. Roo started (and has now completed) kindergarten. I started a new job. And the biggest change…I’ve lost 37.4 lbs. I want to get back into blogger regularly and shift this blog into a motivational diary to keep my on track. See I actually lost 48 lbs this year but I have gain 10 lbs back. I’ve extremely disappointed with myself so I need some accountability.

I’ll give you a little background. I have always been pretty thin and athletic. I joined the Air Force when I was 17 so staying in shape was part of the job. After I got married and started getting older the weight slowly crept up on me as it does so many women. By the time I was 22 and just pregnant with Roo I was around 160 lbs and a size 10. See I’ve always weighted a lot. Even with I was a size 4 I weighted 145 lbs. I wasn’t skinny by any means but I wasn’t ‘fat’ either.

I was on bed rest for most of my pregnancy and gained close to 80 lbs. being a first time mom I thought that I would have my daughter and be back in my old jeans by the time I went back to work. Oh how wrong was I! I did drop some of the weight but went on to yoyo diet for the next 4.5 years.

Last April a few girls at work and I did the biggest loser weight loss competition. At the start of the challenge I weighed in at 213.4 lbs! I couldn’t believe how fat I let myself get. I was barely fitting into a size 16 pants. There were a lot of things that I can blame on why I was fat but I truly believe the biggest struggle for me is that I am an emotional eater. I eat when I’m happy, I eat when I’m sad, I eat when I’m depressed. Eating was how I coped but then after eating things I knew I shouldn’t I just felt worse.
This challenge was the jump start I really needed. I started working out regularly and joined Weight Watchers. At first the weight was coming off easy and I think I lost 7 lbs the first week. After the first few weigh-INS it started coming off slower but I stayed on track. I would have some weeks better than others but I never gained more than a few pounds if I splurged on the weekend.

After changing jobs in October I was doing very well with my weight loss and exercise program. I had a regular gym buddy whose son is my daughter BFF. It worked out great. We’d workout and the kids would play in the kid’s zone at the gym. Even my husband was on board and had dropped over 25 lbs too! At the one year mark I had lost just over 48 pounds and I felt great. My first goal was to lose 50 and I was so close…

So what the hell happen? I couldn’t tell you. Not only did I fall off the wagon; I ate everything on the damn thing. As I stated earlier I am very disappointed with myself because I have gained 10 lbs back but the bottom line is I got rid of all my ‘fat’ clothes and I refuse to by bigger pants. So I have to lose because I’m running out of things to wear. I’m done beating myself up and making excusing. It’s back on track.
My gym buddy has been transferred to Florida as they’re a military family too. Her husband and son are still here for a few more weeks so Roo will have her friend at the gym. I need to make the most out of it because I know she won’t be as excited to go once he leaves to join his mom at the end of June.

I hope to blog as much as possible and to stay honest about my weight and what I eat each day. I hope you enjoy the ride with me and please keep me motivated.

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